Wednesday, April 25, 2007

i have never been left alone no matter where i am, wad im doing, when it is. it feel so great to always have some1 around coz i wont feel lonely. i love the way it is juz like how the world rotate every seconds. sometimes, something seems so near already yet its actually beri far. so far tat u see it wif ur own eyes, yet unable to feel it, touch it, sense it but onli see. tat's all one can do, and tat's call so near yet so far. something meant to be unspoken is far more better than knowing. knowing it may hurts, not knowing it maybe will not hurt as much as knowing it. but being kept in the dark till everyone else knew it except u, tat will be the time which hurt the most. isnt it true? think wif ur heart and not brain on wad i have written and u will understand wad everything meant.

wapiang eh, CA asked mi to cut my hair and dye back black color today. sian seh. i had been chosen as one of the class rep therefore i have to show gd attitude. wad kinda of sh1t is this! y choose me seh? i so bad boi lei. really dun understand but since he chose, bobian lo~ juz be gd boi for this month, next month color back if possible! =D my hair gonna cut short le..sad seh~ some more onli say the back of my hair long? -.-" weird lecturers! loL~ my classmates all became suspicious bout me. y? coz im suddenly beri hardworking.. loL!~ i juz love the way it is now. ^^ heheh.

schooling seems so fun nowadays. felt so great to be in sch~ the company of my classmates, lecturers, food, pool, studies and most importantly, CHIOBUS! lol!~ remember i said there r beri little? well, its juz tat WOODLANDS AREA TAKING 168 TO SCHOOL IS NONE! tat's y i named it little. but actually there's still quite alot if i go self-declare break often. =D saw afew and really attract my attention so i juz keep looking like an ah pek.~ lol! jk lar. im not tat kind. i juz glance and tats it. lol~

everything is so peaceful now. i've become more peaceful. will i become wad i was in the past again? i dunno. but i will try not to! walking in the rain makes mi feel warmth. walking in the sun makes mi feel cooling. staying inside classrooms for lesson makes mi feel happi. staying in my room makes mi feel sleepy. I JUZ LOVE IT SO MUCH! noticed y rain is warmth and sun is cooling? coz i juz felt so. =D

im in love wif u. greatly fall for u. can't forget the smile on ur face. dun wanna lose u. can't stop missing u. can't stop loving u. juz like being wif u days & nights. till dawn bring us apart which will never happens. may the happiness last foreva~ juz u...&...me... =D

wondering how's bin, zean, ryan, sheng, wei, thomas doing. how's their life.. kinda miss gathering wif them but there's always time when there's some1 who didnt turn up. who noes. well, its juz liddat. cant do anything oso rite? everyone busy wif their life. schworks(impossible?), girls(alot?), work(maybe?), NS MAN(u noe who u r?).

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇迹我创造一个给你
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
你让我相信我可以

梦想紧紧握在手中
人就能自信满满的向前走
希望收藏在胸口
心就学会要说no拒绝脆弱

因为你在我的左右
因为心中有彩虹

伤痛让我开始不同
我哭过更加成熟决心已启动
希望收藏在胸口
心就学会要说no拒绝脆弱

因为你在我的左右
因为心中有彩虹

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇迹我创造一个给你
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
你让我相信我可以

曾经受伤的我
以为世界只剩寂寞
是你找回我笑容
你的温柔陪我坚持到最后

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇迹我创造一个给你
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
你让我相信我可以

nice song huh? heh..i love it. =D today kinda long update bobian..heheh.

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Anonymous said...
我也想找一个能一起变老的人.但心却做不到.已经伤痕累累的它,只想安安静静的走下去.不想在受伤了.

Eagle Ivan said...
心是你的，只有你能让它重新开启。很多人都被爱伤过，那是人生必经的一段路。没有遇到错的人，就学不会如何对待将来会出现的那个对的人。If love don't hurts, it probably wasn't love to start with.

nice rite? i oso think tat its true! we always have the same thinking becoz we r BROTHERS! lol~ xD feel so gd to have u as my koR~ keke

siao liao maN~ dunno how to survive next week sia. this week work 1 day onli already half dead. next week work 2 days lei..how how how? dun care la! juz jia you for myself! coz i must be energetic to entertain ppL! as well as looking out for others and taking care of others! xD jia you jia you` kekee..

may happiness be brought wif u and mi~

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Saturday, April 21, 2007

kope from ivan de blog... beri nice..

Often, we find ourselves saying that we do things for other ppl own good. However, we failed to realize that no matter if it's really for their own good or nt, they might nt appreciate at all. We're instead seen as busybodies. So the next time u wana do sth that u think it's for some else's own good, think twice.

When we care too much, we seem 2b intruding their privacy or restrict their freedom. I guess most of us felt that way frm our parents since young. Sometimes, we really dun understand until we're in their shoes. And the person who cares would slowly be tired from all those caring. Coz he/she was nt being appreciated & might even be treated with the worst attitude.

Maybe, we juz have to learn to MYOB. (Mind Your Own Business) haha =) It's hard not to meddle wif ur love ones affairs, however when we learn to do that, we might be happier ourselves. Y bother when they dun care how u feel, rite? Give it up!

Have u ever love some1? I guess most of us did, so do I. I'm still loving alot of ppl! Have u ever hate some1? I guess hate is a v.strong feeling & nt alot of ppl went thru that. That's good! Coz hate is an unbearable feeling, worse than lonliness.

But do you noe wat's the feeling beyond hate? To me, I guess it's immune, infeeling/feeling-less (if there're such words lah).When you hate some1, you feel irritated by their every words/actions. However, when u go passed that stage & become immune, u no longer get annoyed by what they do/say. Coz it no longer matters anymore.

Describing that feeling thru words is juz too diff. You would only noe it when u've been there yourself. But may every1 of u do not need to reach that stage. It's like u've 走火入魔. A path of no return - nth can salvage it anymore.

nice eh?heheh..

okie, back to my updates~ today lesson is interesting. and i asked teacher 1 question when he talk bout secruity for computer. i asked: "is there any computer which is flawless?" guess the reply, no? its not no. its "u dun connect to the internet and dig a underground of 30th floor then ur computer put there will be flawless le." noe the meaning now? MEANING EVERY COMP IS FLAWED! LOL. so its time to find out how to make full use of this flawed. =D its not easy to do it but i dun mind giving it a try. ^^ heheh.

i finally understand y all this happened. its all my wrong-doing. i noe im blaming myself. but im juz love to blame myself. for not being a better person. i dun wan to limit myself to this stage or tat stage. i juz wanna keep improving and be a better person, not for u, not for anyone, but for myself. when i became a better person for myself, then im able to be a better person for other ppl. ppl always say, "there's no one who is perfect is this world." actually i disagree after some thoughts. y? there's no one perfect, but do u ever think another way? there's still ppl who r perfect in the other ppl heart, but not perfect in another person heart? its the way of how u think, and not the ways of how ppl name it. its quite tiring this past few days, been studying and trying to absorb everything lecturers taught. but its not easy ok? as everyone noes, im a lazy or DAMN lazy person to go and listen and even remember it. but now im trying! i wanna do well for myself! hehe.

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Thursday, April 19, 2007

omFg! ytd school is damn stupid. i cant believe tat the fat chinese pig is the CID of the huang na case! omFG! he's so fucking fat chinese pig lor! sian. really cant imagine it.. he..solve case? -.-" SWEAT LAR! l0l! duh dun care le lar. kinda excited ytd, saw few chiobus. =DD so happi. l0l! then enjoy and hav fun wif my classmates! l0l! so much fuN! then at nite reached home chat on fone wif yin for few hrs then while playing dota and talk to her. l0l! then i told my classmates i cant really concentrate on farming. loL! bobian lar, hahaha. i was thinking something, then on the fone, and playing dota as well as sending songs to ym. l0l! so damn blur~ hahahah! i can at most onli handle 2 things at 1 time! lol! =\

today sch, wake up so early went to sch so early start lesson at 8am, i reached at 830am but im not late. =D then teacher started at 835am. lucky~ coz if i miss out even juz 5mins, its gone case. coz this subject is all bout web design. none of the lesson r allow to skip! then during lesson there's like 5mins of time i fall aslp. its so damn freaking tired and boring. tsunami keep talk and talk and talk. coz he gotta rush all the theory in the 3hrs and give us 30mins to do some work. been talking for 3hrs and onli a break of 5mins in between! omG! the 5mins i fall aslp, i fall back so many things. but i tried to understand. thru tsunami recap lucky im able to catch up. and the work he wanted us to do is easy! its onli linking from this website to another by using a program call visual web development 2005 express edition. but wad we do is juz to show tat the homepage is link to another page which shows tat its still under construction. l0l! i did till the last step and tsunami walk to mi see how i progress, and he said: "WTH? U DO SO FAST!" i kena shocked by him. fast mEh? coz i dunno oso tat i do so fast. then i see my classmates and others they still at step 3-4. which is 5-6steps behind mi. =.=" then i finished everything i go around helping others as well. heheh =D I LOVE THIS SUBJECT!! WOOHOO! RAWKS MAN!

time will heal everything. but it wont solve nor stop the mistakes. like wad i told ya, if u asked mi to do it, i will and it onli need mi to take juz 1 day to forget everything. noe y? coz IM A FLIRT! AND I CAN ACT TILL U CANT EVEN SEE THRU! HAHAHA! u dunno the real meaning of flirt. get on wif life man! GET FUCKED AND CRIED TAT U LOST UR VIRGINITY! DUN CRIED TILL LIKE NO TML WHEN TAT REALLY HAPPENS! COZ U CHOSE IT. TAT'S THE LIFE U WANTED. AND LOST VIRGINITY IS ONE THING, U GET PREGNANT AND HE DITCHED U, TAT'S THE TIME U WILL FEEL TAT U CHOSE THE WRONG CHOICE.

i noe its abit doesnt look like me, but i juz feel like saying it out! =D

yin, thx for everything! u wake the damn hell up of mi! lol! i love u!! =DD

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

its over for her and me. im not gonna broad over it. its the past. memories r not allowed to be kept as well between us. heart is dead. feeling is gone. life is back to normal. juz 1 word tat i wanna hear and she said it. tat's the word..."give up". i noe i did cried for few hrs, but tat's the last and final time im gonna cry. as a guy, then gotta meant his word. i swear upon my words! i changed blog link reason is simple. u should noe. its time to vanish from her life. =]

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

today lesson is damn fucking funny and enjoyable! i love sch too! saw quite afew chiobus. =D y lesson funny? got alot of funny things though, some is created by me de..kinda lame for mine. but i wont say it out. xD i will say bout the others de. teacher got say bout a internet service provider call I-CELL then one classmate was half aslp and woke up say "I SELL WAD?" l0l! so damn funny. another one is i asked teacher bout the fibre optic y need to have specialist to fix it. he wanted to draw the wire..and show us the inside of it and draw till look like a DICK! AND WHOLE CLASS LAUGH LIKE FUCK. then he erase away and draw again. AND THE MORE IT LOOK LIKE IT! he kept doing tat for 4-5times and finally gave up. we all laugh till cannot breath. l0l. after awhile we asked him bout the CIP point. he said if we join the dunno wad go toa payoh hub can get 6hrs of CIP points. 11am-5pm on 5th may. hahah. and we asked needa wear sch uniform or not but he dunno so he go asked another teacher. when he received the msg back thru email, he showed it to us. it goes liddat: "yo fren, u think wad ah? bringing them like primary school kid to excursion? y need to wear sch uniform sia! juz wear a jeans and a T-shirt will be fine. i'll try to help u ask and inform u later." l0l!!! SO FUNNY! hAHahA!

teacher gave us 1 IQ question. 10 10 10 (add 1 stroke to it to make it 9:50) l0l. =D

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Monday, April 16, 2007

first saw u was an angel. after knowing makes mi happi. after understanding u gives mi hopes. after liking u makes mi feel the love. after loving u makes mi wanna gib u everything i could.

wadeva it is, dun stress urself so much. remember to rest well and take gd care of urself.

i misses ur voice, ur smiles, ur happinesses and everything bout u.

is there a distance between u and mi? wad causes it? or its juz my imagination? or its true? or izzit u're tired of everything happening around u which causes u alot of stress? or izzit im the one who causes it?

today went to sch, so tiring. slept at 230am and woke up at 630am. went to take bus to sch. slowly take my time to walk then reached sch 820am i think. lesson started at 8am but its ok. CA going thru the rules and regulations in class. *yawn* so boRing. juz act as if im listening but actually im sleeping wif eyes open. =x then continue next lesson same things again. boRing! and break time went to play pool. damn noob now. dunno y. cant even aim properly. =[ went for lesson at 2pm to 330pm and watched a show call...hotel rwanda. nice show. love the killing stabbing. =DD l0l!! but onli able to watch for 30mins, and the rest is to do customer services things. BORING! went to cwp wif ah wei to get my things as well as buy dinner for miself. then home we go. reached home kinda moody. reason? unknown....... rot and rot and rot. till now. still ROTTING. lol.

1 news to report to sotong. i dunno whether i tell u bout looking at chiobus in my sch will affect ur mood or not, but if it dids, pls let mi noe k? if u say no, i will not look at them. =D heheh. xiao xiao woR!

ytd went out wif zean and bin. bought a wallet and a mickey mouse shoe for miself. bin bought a gothic suits wif the same mickey mouse shoe as mine! we went to eat at yuki yaki for our dinner. its nice! the accompany tats wif mi makes it feel great! heheh. i juz love it to eat together wif my families, cuzzies n brothers! enjoy and chat so much! hahah. after tat bin and zean went home and i went over to find sotong. passed her her shoe she wanted mi to help her collect and oso gave her a mickey bag. she like it. im happi ^^ heheh.

tat should be all le bah..hehh..

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``