Friday, December 29, 2006

A gent spots a nice looking girl in a bar goes up and starts small talk. Seeing that she didnt back off he asked her name.

"Carmen," she replied.

Thats a nice name," he said warming up the conversation,

"Who named you, your mother?"

"No, I named myself, she answered.

"Oh, thats interesting. Why Carmen?"

"Because I like cars, and I like men," she said looking directly into his eyes. "So whats your name?" she asked.

"Beersex."

lOL! i find tat its damn funny sia..wakaka..its so lamE~

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Saturday, December 23, 2006

next week will be quite tiring liao le..i work monday, tuesday, thursday, friday and sunday from 3pm-11pm and 4pm-12am(for fri onli). waaa! gonna cry liao..but for the sake of moneY~ jia yoU! haha..

sry anniE, dun angry liao ah..haha.. =P

countdown:18days.

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

was enjoying so much at my grandpa house!! play play play shop shop shop fun fun fun! from 16th to 19th so fun till night time i reached home on the 19th, my mood changed totally.. i hab been thinking thru whether to get a bike license or not.. was intending juz to get a car license should be enff after long thoughts coz the reason i wanted to get a bike is for convenience. but thinking thru, if i wanna get a car in the end as well y not juz save the money for the car. so guess im decided dun waste my money on bike, juz straight learn car and get a car.. SUBARU WRX MI FAV! xD the reason i wanna get this coz if i choose bike instead, my mum will be having difficulties. and its quite dangerous for my mum at her age to sit behind me so i choose car.. the other reason is becoz if we'll to go back grandpa house at malaysia, she able to slp on the car while i drive her back.

actually today i dun intend to help her bring back the bananas and pandan leaves de.. i already carry alot of things but i still bring for her.guess wad? i juz reached home preparing everything and putting everything to place halfway, she reached home. i greet her nicely by calling her mum and guess the reply.. SCREAM LIKE MAD! KEEP SCOLD SCOLD SCOLD SAY WAD NEVER SOAK CLOTHES WHEN I REACHED HOME! I HAVNT EVEN DONE WIF MY THINGS AND SHE DO ALL THIS! not even a single thanks by her. all i get is this.. im really beri upset.. been thinking for her so many things..wanted to do my best for her and all i keep getting back is this. even if i give in and tolerate as much as i could, there's still a limit to it. she once told mi this, "if u'll to follow me instead of him, u will suffer." i noe i will suffer but i dun mind. i'm willing to suffer wif her thru all this hardship of financial problem everytime. all this is nth for me now. wad i really hurt is all the things i done for her, not a single gratitude from her.all i received is SCOLDING and NAGGING. im really tired of fighting for the rights. no matter how hard i tried to fight for the rights, im always wrong and she's always right. i juz kept quiet andwent to bath wif everything undone coz she asked mi to bath. wad she did for mi i appreciate it andsay thanks to her.. y everything i do for her, she doesnt even appreciate, and take it for granted.and return of her "kindness" is thru nagging and scolding. i told her umpteen times tat i hate tat,yet she juz kept repeating doing it. i dunno wad's more i could do to stop all this except 2 choices,1) leave home or 2) avoid her as much as i can. i cant think of anymore things which i can do. the more i try to xplain, the more she say she's right. we cant talk things out nicely anymore. i am already at my limit. or even OVER MY LIMIT I CAN TOLERATE! i dun wan to choose (1) coz i dun wan to leave her alone. u all can say im unfillial as much as u wan, for i dun gib a damn bout it anymore. been fillial to my mum, she'll ask for more. i'll stop, tat's it. fuck it for i hab been leading such a great life.

Li Sheng Jie - Zui Jin is a really nice song! =]

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Y a mother keep wanting their child to be more and more fillial to them when there's a limitation to this which they wont be able to be more fillial thant his? y do they keep interferring with their children life by being concerning to them when they r already old enff to take care of themselves? they noe how to handle things already but y they still wan to try and help when it would onli make things worse for both themselves n their children? y cant they concern lesser? other children have a father and mother, when their mother nag too much their father will tend to ell her to stop. but when there's a child with onli mother? no one is there to stop them. n when the children tried to stop their mother from nagging, they would receive more. if they ignore it, they would oso receive more. wad can they or their mother do? the child is having different kind of stress and tireness already y their mother still giving them so much pressure? there are alot of ppl saying tat this child is very fillial and gd child to his mother, but wad he get in return? cant the mother of this child let the past be past? his changed now.. no more stealing, fighting, not going sch anymore. cant she see it or feel it? when she say she dun like he keep going out n came home late, he stopped doing tat. he now always stay at home whenever he can. yet she still say y he keep staying at home didnt go out for a walk or etc.. wad she actually wan from this child? toleration have a limit too. this child once left home n almost commit suicide becoz of all this, is the past going to happen again? u may not see tat he is having so much sterss, coz he used to hdie his feeling already. its really very tiring for him...

sian, early morning come sch tio ORH GONG! traffic police catch mi J-WALKING. sad sia..20 bucks fly~~ haha... hiew lan, i going malaysia soon liao..if they send tat time i didnt pay fuck care liao..waahahah.. anymore things later than update liao..now still early lazy to write so much.. =P

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

those who hab my house number de dun bother calling my house fone looking for me ler. any calls i heard from my house fone i wont answer de. onli those familiar number than i answer. if u wanna find mi than call my HP! dun use private number to call mi coz i wont answer oso!!! if really wanna mi answer than sms mi telling mi tat u calling me than i will answer le. got it? coz one bastard now temporary release from the fucking jail and he started to call. damn bloody irritating.. so u noe y now. tat's all. =]

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Sunday, December 10, 2006

what's the meaning of loving someone yet tat someone doesnt love u? and y do ppl love some1 when tat some1 doesnt love tat person too? and y there's oso one more which is tat person love tat some1 y noeing tat some1 doesnt love him? there are so many WHYS' to all this loves. but there's onli one answer to all this..which is Unexplainable. isnt it? love cant be xplain no matter how hard u try to think to make xplaination for it. y do i suddenly tok bout this? i dunno, i juz feel like writing something but doesnt noe wad to write..and while listen to my blog song my hand juz suddenly typing all this.

been able to love some1 is fortunate, been able to be loved by some1 is more fortunate. loving a person means tat u have feelings for ppl. loved by some1 means u attract ppl feelings. either one is good for everyone.

but unable to love some1 and unable to being loved, do anyone of u faced this be4? do u guys noe the feelings of it? its emptiness. pure emptiness. u wont noe the meaning of love if u're facing this which i doubt anyone face this be4 in this world.

be happi tat there are ppl loving u and u loving ppl, stay like this and dun change it. remember tat everyone has feelings, they will be hurt too. always think be4 u speak or act if not u'll regret..

i guess u guys wanna noe how im doing recently? haha.. well guess i will start saying how im doing.. recently rather moody and sry to everyone whom i avoided u. sry bout it coz i doesnt wan to vent it on u guys. y moody? not becoz of *ahem*, its becoz my left eye damn pain,swollen and i cant see properly, really beri irritating. now feeling better le..hehe.. anyway i watched happy feet le. its a nice movie! those who didnt watch remember to watch it ^^ coming movie i gonna watch is death note 2!! anyone free to watch wif me? xD haha.. i guess im stopping here..my eye pain again le and i start to see blur blur words le..tml got sch..buaI~

i'll not leave u..

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``

Saturday, December 09, 2006

EVERYTHING NEW NOW!~ GO CLICK ON ALL THE TAG TO SEE!!! ALL GOT CHANGES! MUAHAHA!~ GIVE ME COMMENT PLS! TYTY!! LOVE YA GUYS WHO VIEW MY BLOG! XD

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Wednesday, December 06, 2006

reason for loving some1 and hate some1.. firstly, i wanna ask.. y do u love tat so and so?? and y do u hate tat so and so?? most ppl answer for love is.. i dunno..it juz the feeling for tat so and so.. but as for hate, there's ton of reasons.. they most probably say tat tat person sux, backstabbers, irritators etc etc, but do u think bout how u urself r like when u saying all this to other ppl and hate them?? did u ever ask urself wad kind of person u r?? is there anyone out there who dislike or hate u??

how do u noe some1 love u? as for guys to feel it, its easy. the girl will hint u thru many ways..u should noe..lazy to xplain.. as for girls to feel it, the guy must show it obviously and not hinting here and there..becoz nowadays de girls all r beri slow in this. =X loL~ but its true, dun scold mi for saying this pls>.<

how do u noe some1 hate u then? most of the hatred r not obvious, they do it behind ur back not letting u noe. they go around telling ppl tat u r blah blah blah and when they r infront of u, they r beri nice person to u. y they do this? they hate u yet they doesnt wan u to noe tat its them tat start all this. this is call backstabbers~ some of them even worse..they hate u yet they unable to find fault in u, therefore they lied, bluff and all juz to make ppl think tat u r a bad person. this is call liar.

y do a person hate another person?? becoz of personality conflicts. they cant get well together as a fren and so this happen. how to prevent this?? DUN BE FREN LAR! LOL! jk.. its ok to be fren wif, but dun do all this stupid things to them. juz tell them how u feel towards tat person.. y u dislike the way/ways he/she do.. this can make a better person for everyone. liddat everyone gain something instead of losing something. ^^

y do a person love another person? becoz of personality similiarity. they love the same things, love doing same things, love being together and thus they love each other. wad i say for love is not those relationship onli! its oso brothers, sisters, families, relatives, buddies, etc etc love. as for mi, i love my buddies coz we love to do the same thing..SEE CHIOBUS TOGETHER!!! LOL! i love my mummy becoz she can chat wif mi like normal fren instead of those manner manner things. i love my cousins becoz we talk bout everything and play together! i love my frens becoz they make my life full of enjoyment and able to learn new things!

haiz, been beri tired lately. my left eye pain for 6days le. machiam kena box liddat.. actually is not enff slp and stress too much on my left eye le. really damn busy.. friday after lesson go work dao night time come back slp, sat morning wake up play game wif frens till afternoon go work again then come home study for monday test. then sunday early morning go work dao night time come home slp..monday test so early wake up than some more headache while doing test.. but i still manage to complete as much as i noe de..and im the first to hand in and walk out of the classroom. =X loL~ then i really buay tahan so i went home half day on monday..then tues go school then after school go work dao night time. then today finally able to blog. haha..today eye still pain pain..sob sob.. =( wish will ok asap.. hehe...

If there's a chance for mi again, i will not lose it anymore!

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``