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Sunday, December 25, 2005
I cried. Ran to my pillow and hide under it continuing crying. It's so pain. My mum, after awhile came in and asked mi to go wash face and eat dinner. I told her im not hungry and i dun wan to wash. I just wan to slp tat's all! Since tat day onwards, i told myself, everyone is evil, no one is kind. Until once, my favourite toy gun i playing wif it and i accidentally slipped it. It fell into a 3metre deep drain. My mum told mi nvm, she'll get a new one for me but i keep saying i dun wan, i onli wan tat. And my mum actually went down to take it for me! My mum, changed my thought, my feeling for her. She actually went down to pick it up for me. 3metre deep, it's higher than her and she got to climb the ladders with her bag on as she juz finished work.
To Be Continued...
erm. my story look like real story meh? LOL! maybe my thinking too gd to make it real le? can i be story teller? LOL! =X
Suddenly have the feeling of giving up everything in life. Things i wanna get, i cant get it. But things i dun wan to get, it keep giving mi chance and chances to get it no matter how hard i try to avoid. so wad for trying so hard to get it? y not juz dun giv a damn about anything n live my fucking life off wif no aims, goals and targets. wad for striving so hard to get something which i wont get? no matter wad i did, it's the very best i can do, yet i still unable to move her heart. even a little bit, of her trust? her to share probs wif me? Am i really such a failure person when wooing a person i love? AM I REALLY SUCH A FAILURE?! 11months of liking and waiting. it's kinda pain..suffering...
today is christmas, wish everyone a merry christmas day! wakaka=P erm. countdown wif mi cousins and buddies. lol. they look stupid=x dun wanna tell u how. loL! =X er. then after tat went cycling abit then go sit at vista park chit-chat. eat maggie too. LOL! then er. around 5am+, felt like raining le, went under blk to rest. tony go sheng h0use to bath, coz he going meet his dear dear than sheng go home bath oso coz he got work. then ran go home report to papa. LOL! thomas come mi house slp-_-. stupid pig. lOL! =X then i play dota till now. 7+ am. then come here to blog. loL!~ er. write till here ba. coz it's stopped here. loL!
``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``
