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Friday, December 23, 2005
I have been living with my mum alone ever since. From primary one, which is 7 yrs old, i hav been under special training. "Caning training". Everytime i unable to memorise the word for my spelling, i will receive the training. From Primary one to Primary three i have received countless times of this training. From then on, i'm not afraid of getting canned anymore. y? becoz my skin hav harden, no feeling. one day, i'm really cant tolerate anymore, i took all the cane and throw it out of windows. My mum giv mi a tight slap for doing so. It's hurt. The first time she slapped mi. Im totally hurt inside my heart. She actually slapped me, her very own son.
To Be Continued...
Love hurts alot seriously. U feel hurts when u fall for some1. y? becoz when u r unable to see tat person, u felt so uncomfortable. when u r unable to be wif tat person, u tend to feel upset. when u see tat person wif opposite sex together chit-chatting happily, u feel hurt. so why love? when one person have been hurt for alot of times, he tend to lose the feeling of life. the feeling to live on in this world. he is unable to take it anymore if he got hurt a lot of times. He will feel tat life is meaningless. there's nth left for him to live on. Thus, he will feel senseless in everything he do. He dun giv a damn about the surrounding which happen. He onli hav her in his mind and nth else. love.. does this really exist? do u really noe wad is love? the happiness of love? the feeling of loving ppl?
waa..today so tired. went to erm. somewhere to buy present for xanne bd. belated bd present>.< well..but i still get it. i think it's kinda nice. haha. hope tml pass to her she'll like it. =D then went to play dota wif mi buddies at lan. 6 of us. 3 a side. lol. kinda fun la..although im not really in the mood to play. for some reason. dun ask mi wad reason coz i wont tell ya. loL! i juz keep dying. tat's wad i do. jazz msged mi, asked mi sunday free not, go her er. celebration for christmas. wa. cannot make it coz monday got to work then need to rest on sunday. then after playing 11pm liddat le. went out cwp (titanic) place sit and chat. haha..saw the LJS wanting again. she working there, then we make fun of ran again. LOL! purposely ask him to go buy drinks for us. LOL! then funny is, when she saw us, she turn another side and laugh then turn back again. LOL! i guess it's becoz she saw mi happi? LOL! jk. is saw ran ge happi! LOL!!! then wei said tat she blur diao when asking us for order. LOL! omg, so freaking funny. well, for them. im not in the mood to laugh actually although im laughing. but in my heart, it's dead. no feeling. went home after tat. now i wrote this blog. it's 11pm+ le. erm. stop here le.
``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``
