Saturday, March 04, 2006

a game and a love is totally different. i finally went it thru myself. a game, when u lose, u able to restart or start again.. but as for love, u cant.. when u make ur partner lose the love for u, its the end for u. no matter wad she wont accept the love from u anymore. and when game u win, u win everything. but as for love, u win but yet u could lose it anytime as well. u must maintain of even be better in order to continuing winning her love for u. sometimes, when there are game which u felt u'll win for sure, u actually win. but as for love, u felt so, it turn out otherwise and u will felt like the whole world is turning upside down in ur life. "u can control game but not love." this sentence..i will remember it for life. when u lost a game, u r given another chance to win again. when u loses love, u wont be able to hav anymore chance to win her heart. u could onli hide in 1 corner sobbing all ur heart out but yet nth change. its still the same, everything goes on around u. the different is u giving up on urself.

truthfully, 3/3/2006, 1020pm. i went up to the top floor of a carpark. for there's a rooftop. i was intending to jump off tat time. im really cant tolerate my mum and wad i can do to make her change, she juz wont change. im beri stress and felt alot of pressure by her already. Then i thought of wan ting, who will always be there for mi. but it seems like..she wont anymore. not ever again. y is everytime when i thought i finally found some1 whom i can trust, i can be wif and it turns out to be the one tat hurts mi most? y is this so? y is this blog started for? izzit really to represent mi for my whole life as the topic wrote? xiong-loner. i created this for i felt i gonna be a loner foreva.

ting.. remember the song i wanted u to hear? the song is 98degrees - chance to love you more

I never thought I would be
The man that I see before me
When I look in your eyes
As you try not to cry
It’s pain I see
Now I know that what I’ve done is wrong
And I know that it's hard to be strong
When the hurting inside you
From all of the lies
Lasts so long

So let me hold you
Here in my arms
And console you
Keep you safe from the harm
That you felt before
I will give you more
Baby promise you'll try to hold on

Look in my eyes
Look in my heart
Look in my soul, girl
It’s torn all apart
Look at my pride
Lay down on the floor
Praying you'll give us just one more chance
To love like before
Let me love you some more

How could I ever let go?
Of the one true love I’ll ever know
Every night girl I pray that it isn't too late
To hold you close

Can I bring you in from the rain?
And protect you
Take away all the pain
That you felt back then
We can love again
Girl I know that I was to blame

Look in my eyes
Look in my heart
Look in my soul, girl
It’s torn all apart
Look at my pride
Lay down on the floor
Praying you'll give us just one more chance
To love like before
Let me love you some more

Baby I swear
That I’ll give you more
All of the things
Your heart's looking for
Now girl please don't walk away
Trust me when I say
You have all of my love

Look in my eyes
Look in my heart
Look in my soul, girl
It’s torn all apart
Look at my pride
Lay down on the floor
Praying you'll give us just one more chance
To love like before
Let me love you some more

Look in my eyes
Look in my heart
Look at my pride
Down on the floor
Praying you'll give us just one more chance
To love like before
Let me love you some more

i think tat this is the last thing tat i could do for u. wish u the best in everything and hope u will find the guy who suits u more. im sry to leave such a bad and failed footsteps in ur life to make u feel stress and everything. but i really hope u would change ur mind. be back wif mi again like be4. really, im hoping it.

Guys, there's one thing i wanna let u guys noe. i hoped everyone wont regret for wad u did. If u felt its the right time to do this thing, juz do it. u may not hav the chance anymore juz like mi. and regret for not doing so in the past. u truly will if u dun do it on the right time. And 1 more thing, no matter wad u do, dun do things which the other party doesnt like. try to find out more first.

ivan: thx for been there for mi..u r my real gd kor.
sandy: thx for ur consoling although u kept saying u cant do anything. but all this is enff for mi. really. thx alot..
ting: wad i wanna do? i'll cont to wait..and cherish the past tat we been together and never be forgotten. if u didnt see this blog of mine, its ok.. for i felt u wont see it anyway. i felt im juz writting to wall. like the way when u tok to mi, the way it felt to be like toking to wall. no answer.. no reply.. no feeling everything..

Just want you to know that i will always be here for you. My door is wide open for you to come anytime you wanted to. And the door is only you who're able to enter but not any other people.

``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``