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Saturday, September 30, 2006
is fate decided by ourselve or other ppl?
u gib mi hope and now u destroy it. wad u actually wan from me? cant u juz tell me straight?! i've already tried my best to help u le.. n u keep gibing mi prob one after another.. when can u stop? i dun even noe how i should tell u everything i wrote face to face. n i'm sure u wont noe wad i writing n wont see this too. but i juz cant keep everything in my heart. do u noe tat i suddenly have the urge to go back to tat carpark? i suddenly remind of tat's the place i should go n nowhere else. u keep telling mi dun do this, dun do tat. then do wad?! FUCK MAN! is this really my life or urs? i've already tried to gib in to u as much as i can.. but u keep asking for more. i've already told u last time tat i wont have much time for u if i started working. n now wad? u freaking forget all!! n again onli my dearest panda acc me.. seeing mi in tears. how many times am i gonna face this? wad had i done in the past? havnt i help enff ppl now? y am i still having this kind of shit life.. i juz dun understand.. a simple, peaceful, carefree life is all i wan.. is it tat hard? or u dun wan me to have it? or god dun wan? who noes? maybe its all of the above..wad a gd fucking life i had.. i wish u can go back to last time how u treated me after i went to the carpark.. n not the way it is now...
N now wad.. the freaking hell chalet... y must go? i dun have money i dun wan to go got wrong? i dun have time i dun wan to go oso got wrong? i need to work on those day to earn enff money oso got wrong? cant i choose wad i wan in my life? we won competition n got alot of medals i noe.. n we celebrating it i noe it too. but i cant join u guys.. my heart will oso be there wif u even if i cant join.. cant i do this??
the loanshark came again.. wrote another unit again.. now its 09542. how many more times they gonna write? last time its 09540.. next is 09544? y r they so fucking timid? onli appear when there's no one. is all the loanshark so timid? cant they even come face to face say owe how much? call them n the number they wrote on the wall is fake..how to contact? even if wanna return money oso cannot lOR! (yea as if i would gib them..i think i'll onli gib them feel the hospitality...) FUCKERS!!!
i oso hab my prob.. can u stop adding more probs to me? i cant even solve my probs yet its ok..i helped u..but stop gibing some more of it!!!! DO U FREAKING HELL NOE ALL THIS ACTUALLY MAKE MI THINKING OF BREAKING THE 2 PROMISES I MADE?!
thx ivan, qi, yu and my buddies. im glad u guys always there for me. thx alot! ur guys r the best in my liFE!
``\\ Loving you is all bout mE //``
