was enjoying so much at my grandpa house!! play play play shop shop shop fun fun fun! from 16th to 19th so fun till night time i reached home on the 19th, my mood changed totally.. i hab been thinking thru whether to get a bike license or not.. was intending juz to get a car license should be enff after long thoughts coz the reason i wanted to get a bike is for convenience. but thinking thru, if i wanna get a car in the end as well y not juz save the money for the car. so guess im decided dun waste my money on bike, juz straight learn car and get a car.. SUBARU WRX MI FAV! xD the reason i wanna get this coz if i choose bike instead, my mum will be having difficulties. and its quite dangerous for my mum at her age to sit behind me so i choose car.. the other reason is becoz if we'll to go back grandpa house at malaysia, she able to slp on the car while i drive her back.

actually today i dun intend to help her bring back the bananas and pandan leaves de.. i already carry alot of things but i still bring for her.guess wad? i juz reached home preparing everything and putting everything to place halfway, she reached home. i greet her nicely by calling her mum and guess the reply.. SCREAM LIKE MAD! KEEP SCOLD SCOLD SCOLD SAY WAD NEVER SOAK CLOTHES WHEN I REACHED HOME! I HAVNT EVEN DONE WIF MY THINGS AND SHE DO ALL THIS! not even a single thanks by her. all i get is this.. im really beri upset.. been thinking for her so many things..wanted to do my best for her and all i keep getting back is this. even if i give in and tolerate as much as i could, there's still a limit to it. she once told mi this, "if u'll to follow me instead of him, u will suffer." i noe i will suffer but i dun mind. i'm willing to suffer wif her thru all this hardship of financial problem everytime. all this is nth for me now. wad i really hurt is all the things i done for her, not a single gratitude from her.all i received is SCOLDING and NAGGING. im really tired of fighting for the rights. no matter how hard i tried to fight for the rights, im always wrong and she's always right. i juz kept quiet andwent to bath wif everything undone coz she asked mi to bath. wad she did for mi i appreciate it andsay thanks to her.. y everything i do for her, she doesnt even appreciate, and take it for granted.and return of her "kindness" is thru nagging and scolding. i told her umpteen times tat i hate tat,yet she juz kept repeating doing it. i dunno wad's more i could do to stop all this except 2 choices,1) leave home or 2) avoid her as much as i can. i cant think of anymore things which i can do. the more i try to xplain, the more she say she's right. we cant talk things out nicely anymore. i am already at my limit. or even OVER MY LIMIT I CAN TOLERATE! i dun wan to choose (1) coz i dun wan to leave her alone. u all can say im unfillial as much as u wan, for i dun gib a damn bout it anymore. been fillial to my mum, she'll ask for more. i'll stop, tat's it. fuck it for i hab been leading such a great life.

Li Sheng Jie - Zui Jin is a really nice song! =]